More Strange Things

I find it a bit amusing but quite weird that Ellen has to show off that she can figure out the beach better than someone else.  Ellen, that's not gonna get her friends..  A lot of people we have to figure why they are or aren't from New Orleans.  Compare every other place in the U.S., and what do you get?  New Orleans is mostly made of New Englanders, which is the very northeast.  I kinda think that says the opposite of what we've been believing.

Sick and Tired of Covering These Things

It is not a sin for someone not a European from the South in the U.S. to enjoy the beach or live there.  It is true they have made fun of Southerners.  A lot of people aren't really like that.  I don't at all understand your belief a European from Europe can get to know the ocean and someone not from the South but in the U.S. all can't.

What I Think

I want this to be over.  You weren't more blessed to be from the South than I was, and up north there exists lots of nice things waiting to happen.

No, I am not a failure like Tim Burton and from the South.  Tim Burton isn't really a failure.  I dunno, I mean I remember there was a special feeling to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  Then, it was about the music, which I was a musician.  I would say Tim Burton is a bit silly, but that's to be put aside.  His daughter seems silly but not really.  The thing is I am different from most people and it's not "because my mom is Chinese."  I mean in a certain way.  In a lot of ways, I fit in as similar to others.

Not Making a Big Deal out of a Big Deal

Ellen DeGeneres seems to piece things together from ner "New Orleans" heritage.. love how she says that.  I kinda pieced out the background 1st.

What do you think @ people from the South all of a sudden saying they are more ***y?  If you are from there, you are probably not bad if your parents are from a nice place..  Now, I mean, you probably were raised totally different.  Some people hold onto their childhood more than high school.

A Deep Cut

Ever since Johnny Depp and Tim Burton became big as far as fame goes.. I feel if anyone sees me try to stimulate them by how attractive I am that they will get jealous and find some way of startling me.  Startling in general happens all too much.  I feel so threatened, and I feel something of the world is gotten the better of me.  Everyone gets mad at people from popular places, like the state of Florida.  I've had friends on the beach.  They seemed fine.  They weren't Pennsylvanian.  Why is the world so different in that way, too?  I find it psycho.

Chosing

Maybe, Ellen is above me.  Maybe, those teens are above me..  Why would Ellen chose all those people who aren't better than me.  I know for a fact it's my race that makes me not great.  My life seems calculated, but I'm a normal person and I fit in.  Who cares if I don't have a mom to pity though she's Chinese.  Ya'll think these "lies" are a dream for me.  Don't worry @ my parents, I am that I am.

I'm not much.

Howcome people who said they "did it" to some extreme failure because of some setback they won't take care of "get" to do things that help them and I don't.

Also, I will never be all that Ellen is, and obviously no one likes me because these people seem to make fun of me a lot for things I didn't do and I think it's just my race.  I am okay, but then they just  wanna kill me.  I don't know if all I do is worth it.  I feel it strange my generation is a total failure and I am prevented from succeeding but am told to be a leader and not a follower, a giver and not a reciever.  I have nothing to give, ya'll think I'm nothing|crap.

Sticky Tactic: Just Knocking Down Those in High Places

Some people develop certain lives and they have certain "needs."  People do not treat other people like me.  I did "what I was supposed to do."  Therefore, I was successful.  That success was taken from me.

Not in the Game..

I know that people 5-10 years older than me are just finding some excuse to be mean to me cuz they know I'm ½ Chinese.  People like this fix it up like a game, like me being bad will make others feel less stressed.. really, lots of people used this tactic.  You sense it in the air.  Some people know if I was mean it would hurt them, their feelings.  So, they get too picky and I mean I know they mess up.  That is considered gay.

Everyone's as Good as Ellen at Some Point

What can I say?  People seemed all over me in the world when I was 11, but things unfolded and happened.  I was always so good around my friends at school.  Like, all those stimulating things people would feel pressured to do to me.  I'm still to be loved, but people don't seem to find me intelligent online.  In real life, I don't look as good as I used to.  Things were set up to say I had the opportunity and for some reason taken away without knowing what to do.  Should I start exercising again?

Pushing Me Away

Everyone isn't really pushing me away, but my teacher Ginny and Ellen DeGeneres are for other people, probably younger teens.  I know Ellen made me mad at a bad time in a bad way @ her pretend mom.  How can I react that well that quickly the 1st time someone does that to me??  So, let's look at Tim Burton, Ellen DeGeneres, and Ginny Kopf.  I feel insults from them all in secret.  They have always been racist to me.  I know they did it cuz they wanted to.  They wanted to make me look bad 1st to help them.  I think Ellen is like, "Okay, Christina was mean to me."  She put the noises and weird page loading thing and glitches and major events on me, so that is completely false.  She is trying easy street.  I liked to read her on Twitter and thought her show was fun.

I see Amand Seyfried just posted a picture of her with a Chinese.  I didn't say what I would have wanted to say, but I believe she would have a flip reason for posting herself with an Asian.  Why would someone as rebellious as her "say" something of that nature?

I mean, Ellen is nice, but I just wanted to say I felt I was being pushed away, more by Ginny and with a hint from Tim Burton.  I feel if she wants to be popular, Tim will make things worse and she will rise her status.  People already can see that she wants me to look up to her show and her fans attached to it as though I'm too old to watch it.  I was an artist, had too much homework too.  (Not just a visual artist.)  Why am I not in a proper category?  How do these other people get to watch her show with school.  They knew better than me or just wanted to watch TV?  TV was considered bad.

Did you notice

My singing "magically" got less magical?  I think some Early Boom scouts .. I mean LATE .. said you go and get'm to people who haven't really yet developed and found their talent, just want attention for nothing and are not embarrassed.  I know it's someone whose ass doesn't feel safe becuase Ellen DeGeneres seems to have found out about me and an incident online about Nell Burton somehow .. she's been so mean to me every day and planted people watching me in my room to torture me with noises and the page loading all day.  Fine, punish me for nothing.  I like to curse for fun but try not to as usual.  I don't wanna make Ellen look bad.  I'll just say it's something in a way everyone seems to do.  That's what I'm being held accountable for.  She even made me mad at her mom in a way that doesn't look like her mom would do to a person like me..  I have some things more in common with her than Ellen.  I'm not rebellious toward my elders.