What's Out There

It seems like stars today spend so much time trying to avoid other people.  They should be ardent if in an interview with passion for what they do, a quick recoil that says they are not what you think they are if you wanna meet them so badly.  The people will come.  Before Tim Burton and Johnny Depp with Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, things were just like this.  You didn't say oh I have to meet such and such like right now.

How much is too much?  I don't know.  I'd say it's more of a depression or boredom with what the world of fame has to offer artistically.  They have all this stuff set up for kids to dream big.  In the end, all I seem able to think of for solo-based performances is singing.  I think it's important to know ballet.  Clara in The Nutcracker is spectacular, even if she is about 10 years old.  I feel as the years wore on I lost my ability to express myself and feel myself being alive.

It's like all this stuff is in the works from a very young generation, when mine was encouraged in this way and mostly seemed to chuck it.  I think it would be fun to make it.  I really wanna do a CD and don't know what songs to do.  I don't know when I want to become famous.  I like people like Sarah Brightman and Ellen DeGeneres so better hurry.

Any "Work" or "Sacrifice?"

If you think I prefer to be humiliated as I am cuddled is up to you.  I always thought we were to focus on our life, not going steady.

People play around with work and sacrifice.  It is work to not be constantly caressed..  It is a sacrifice to be introverted.

There are 2 kinds of people in this world, and I am the 1st kind, type A.  This kind is more rigid, busy, and focused on displaying a concern for more tangible results to problems.  Type B is laid back, mellow, probably inclined to cuddle..

It is said we all need positive recognition and at some point do not need anyone, like our parents.

Making [My] Dreams Come True

I know that by submitting myself to imagination and remembering to be careful eventually I will reach my dreams and they will come true.  I may not go to outer space with Sarah Brightman, but perhaps you'd possibly find doing this attractive??  Like I said before because of me everyone likes Sarah Brightman now and I don't wish to have a fight @ the occurrence.  I would be flattered, but I guess it's not "what" most people live for.

Organize Your Racial Priorities

Do people just say no I don't like Chinese but I want everything they did?  That's how I feel.  If they know you are not white, they want to know right away if it's Chinese.  I know when they find out what exactly it is they proceed to discriminating and thinking all these weird things @ what they hope their mother would say @ it.  I am listening to "Ave Maria" by Sarah Brightman, and all I can say is I know how to sing, too, now, I think.  I got that there is something special about her not being a show-off that non-Caucasians should take in stride like a god, like a stupor of a dystopia.  Some people are just more inhibited..

Identify and Label Strengths

Don't say, I wish my geographical home was divided into cold and warm, north and south.  If you are not at the very top, you will never make it.  You have to say I come with something other than hills and valleys or flat land.  Likewise, at work, though, you should strive to meet your dream and realize that you have different strengths for attaining a future goal, however big or standard that goal may be..  I've always been in sorta ratty homes.  Recognize the strengths of others and try to identify with them.  You will get more work done in that regard.  It is good to not just go around being all free and careless and happy in just that way all the time.  I mean like a blonde because not all humans can identify with and succeed in that and even hold grudges @ other people's hair as children.

What's the ***est sound you can make?

I have a grudge against all men who treat me like an old soul.

You know those really cute English-looking men with light brown hair and older 1s with the same touch and feel?  Now, that's called complimentary to a girl.  Then, you have your internet jocks who treat you like a little Chinese woman.

Some people don't like men.  Does that make me ***?  I mean, I even used to follow Johnny Depp and Tim Burton, and I think all I got was their touchy-feeliness as a gift from Mutha (mother.)

It'll go away.

It all always goes away.  I have a dream my dad is carrying me with my legs flaring out, and it makes me intensely mad in the inside but it goes away.  I feel my dad's big, chunk of a hand on my *beep* and it should also take some form of play and go away.  My dad is more a business dad, doesn't grope me throughout the week, not sure what your dad can do to you.  Just remember, any external, unnecessary, unbecoming, and undesired form of "touching" someone in any way of the word will pass and fighting but crying won't help, crying I don't know much on the subject.  I've looked into things and found that people feel an unnecessary bond to their moms, like adults.  They tend to attractively flee and escape.  In my family, I feel looking at the pictures on the wall my dad's mom had great respect for whatever her kids turned out to be and a comfortable distance with the youngest, who was cared for by the elder 2.  She turned out to be the lifetime belle and a complainer..  Why do I get in trouble for talking?  She was so tickled as a person, you know, like a positive rapport?  She looks spoiled compared to the other kids, and she probably gets good vibes.  All she has is herself.  She didn't seem inappropriately approached by my gramma, her mom.  In fact, she could sport a fun distance.

Facebook and Cyber Networking

My dad had a sadistic grin and expression about me not having Facebook on my "appropriate" blog for people at work..  I do have Twitter, and he seemed a smiley guy to see my Retweet of Ellen for Britney, "Oops! I did it again" for her B-day.

I know Facebook kick-started for older people when my aunt was on, and now a lot seems off.  It has been a twisting, dangerous experience.  I know I met my future theater teacher there.  She was a bit inappropriate, telling me off just because I talked about countries and what they're like.

I have, however, networked and got other people on it but not much.  I have a slew of accounts.

Experimentation

In the end, you don' luuuv me.  How do you feel @ famous people honing in on me through experimentation and not finding out about me in real life, not knowing what they'd really do in the real world?  What am I?  I am not the ultimate amazing 1..  How do I know about what others my age range or generation feel @ this?

I think, if you're interested, I'll inform you I used to say a lot in whatever voice I had that I wish I had older siblings, why am I suffering as the oldest.  That makes it so I never really feel appropriate.

I think I am valuable and know people could learn from me and even earn from me--

Sarah Brightman

She is a beautiful lady who has had successful attempts at being a well-loved, ***y singer.  I noticed that since I've been online everyone wants her.  I think some people found me online, and people are using detectors to test out who "works."  I would be more than honored to meet Britney Spears, but I am a classical singer and do like the kidsy stuff she did.  I always watched Barney when I Was like age 7, 8.  I wanted to be cheesy and corny like them about singing, which I've always had this great love for, but, like I say, I don't sacrifice everything else like schoolwork for it.  I would if I could go back, now..

What do you think about how she is going into space in frustration, which may seem selfish, to get away from kids?  She doesn't have any of her own, and it must be sensitive.  I know she is just going because it is a good idea, but these things also fall into place.

Moreover, she wasn't like Johnny Depp, Tim Burton, even Josh Groban.  Why, just because she likes me, does everyone like act so coy @ her?

Singing

I don't believe in singing all the time as though it would make you happier than a child with candy at Christmas.

Now, singing is almost become a very important political issue to both parties, those who don't give a funny "fart" and those who say oh I'm have done Opera since like I started high school .. but I know you've already had your musical base..  :|

People are mean to me, think my magical quality should be taken away.  They think my singing is so gayly politically incorrect, like I didn't get lessons cuz I didn't submit to my parents at age 4 oh I'm a suck up of a girl who sings to demonstrate my zaniness to you!

All I can say at my numerous attempts at numerous performances, including even Asians.., has produced girls obsessed over some thing they can't do, like sing like a bot, a robot.  People like the famous, attractive opera diva babe Renee Fleming cuddle to this precocious behavior.  Well, Renee, let me, Christina age 27, tell you something.  I grew up strongly with the forcement that singing and performing is to be fun and that's like all that counts even!  If you say oh Christina is not really a Caucasian and that's how it's done, no one sings except people who can't and pay attention to stupid things and then there's the occasional nonentity like me..

1 Direction

I heard from my dad that their famous song is that killing them more makes them feel good.  I was like, "Ugh!"

I realized the reason they did it was to, as people say, show themselves off to Ellen DeGeneres with the suggestion they "hail" from England.  They want to say this is it, you can't understand why, we want it all @ Ellen and it's never gonna be about anyone else and you're gonna cheer her on like you're in a stupor or 1 of those dystopias.

This is not to say at all that being nice to Ellen could in some way be played with as being a bad thing.  What's so good about showing off hurting yourself?  There is nothing in it we know about today.

My point is they did it to be suggestive and untruthful to other people in the world who are just as good as Ellen.  They want the "good" stuff which is I mean the bad stuff.  Ellen admits she's a bit hasty and tricky, and they think it's funny rather than serious and like a journey to get it out and feel good.

Now, how can you change any individual human being, which exists.., and turn them into something bad because you're jealous and want attention?  Here is my warning to you, 1 Direction, and all you people who meditate on this!  I am with the force of Johnny Depp and certainly not afraid to attack nor am I incapable of doing it..  I will put it off.

Welcome to my blog!

It only comes once!  I've had a share of cyber-blogging and decided to make a professional blog where people can really talk to me from the real world, where I don't use curse words, don't flat out say a certain other word even when feeling intense pain.. where people will learn to respect me as someone else, someone I was..

My main say is I think us having computers is in our blood but the best thing in the world to blog.  I was discouraged when I lost and could not refind a page at age 11 in 1998.  I just e-mailed.  My only reason for even being online now is my love of..Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, but now they've taken away that magic that the world had just for us not being perfect.

I like the TV on, like I have now, though I haven't much.  I watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" about every day when I can.

I mainly was interested to come in on anti-racism.  I am very interested in different cultures, like the Middle East..

I also before I fell was big on netiquette but had no answer and retreated to being a personal blogger.  I mostly feel bad when I curse, but I believe it's the message and not an individual word.  Stare at that word as long as you like.  Don't give people a hard time for it cuz you know you do something like that, too.  Some people wish they didn't, already!  Get the people who do the thing on purpose that you don't like!!

School was a failure and not worth it.  You have to go to a school that lets you sleep so you can come in and do magic on the test.